I am an over-thinker.
After spending the last hour researching possible verses and articles about over-thinking, I finally just decided that I should just WRITE this blog about over-thinking.
The last week, I wrote and re-wrote 5 (yes FIVE) blogs and have posted approximately zero of them. Why, you ask? Well, because I am an over-thinker. I thought about each blog in-depth, and re-wrote them from five different people's perspectives, because I thought each time that perhaps it would be offensive to one people group or another. In the end, I ended up doing nothing at all.
Here-in lies my problem: it’s not the thinking that’s bad, or the deep consideration that creates problems. What’s bad is when contemplation causes me to do nothing.
I have had a few things I’ve wanted to try for a while now, and after going back and forth on them for LITERALLY almost a year, my husband finally forced me to actually DO something about it. The day before I actually stepped forward, of course, the dreaded moment of re-thinking it happened. I sat awake in bed and wondered what might happen if I went through with it… the good, the bad, and everything in between. To the point where I justified that the idea that if I did nothing and stayed the same, nothing bad could happen.
I almost decided to stay put due to fear, and let the adventures of life just pass me by. So sure, nothing dangerous would happen, but neither would anything worth remembering.
Then, I snapped out of it. I started thinking about what GOOD could happen if I just tried. I started thinking about what I might miss out on if I never stepped out. The thought of missing out became worse than being uncomfortable, and that was the moment I decided to act.
SO, I’ve made a new vow to myself this week to be a person who’s guided by ACTION more than I’m guided by contemplation; To be careful not to get so deep in my thoughts that I drown in the depths of my fears, my insecurities, and my failures.
When fear is the guide, it becomes impossible to have the foresight to sail forward into new adventures.
God’s been showing me that His vision is ever before me, and all I have to do is look for Him. God’s plans for me are all in front of me if I only begin looking for them in the right places. I’ve decided to start focusing on the possibility rather than pitfalls; on God’s direction rather than self-inspection; and action rather than comfort.
To finish the story, YES, this week I took a first step towards a goal of mine, and you know what? It wasn’t as scary or dreadful as I pictured it to be in my mind. In fact, it went great, and I actually felt more confident in the middle of many uncertainties than I have in a long time. It's going to be a long journey, this one, and it's not over and I am not sure what the future will bring. But, I'm holding on to this simple little truth for today, and not letting go:
Prov. 16:3 Commit your ACTIONS to the Lord, and your plans will succeed.
So yes, this is a short, sweet and to the point because I no longer want to re-hash this blog from 5 different perspectives! I’m just going to commit this next adventure to God, & MOVE FORWARD. God's got this one in the bag.