Have you ever had one of those days, where you don't know whether to cry, come out swinging, pray, or just keep moving? Lately, I've had a lot of them...I don't know about you, but I tend to be a justice freak, and a passionate momma. When those two collide, I can tend to be distracted by anything that gets in my way! The last few months have been full of those days when I feel I can't win from any angle. Frustration had had its way with me...for a moment.
Without question, I can easily say that I have lived a relatively cush/easy life. I am surrounded by GREAT people, GREAT parents, and I haven't had to fight too hard to live a peaceful life. Our school, our friends our church, and my work are all for me and our family. Not everyone can say that and for that I am blessed beyond belief.
Recently, through a series of circumstances, I began to insert myself into some messy parts of the world around me. I believed, (and still believe!) that God doesn't just want me to live simply in my comfortable little world, surrounded by good people, places, & community. When I took time to look beyond my surroundings, it shocked me when I realized that not everyone is concerned with always doing the right thing, making sure love is a top priority, or letting justice be the guide. I've learned that He wants me to bring hurting people who have NOT had the great life experiences I've had, into this world of mine and show them that there is another way to do life. A peaceful and joyful way of living that begins with Christ and ends in a life of purpose.
I've hit some bumps in my road that have made me want to seriously run back home to my comfy little world and hide where it feels easy. I've encountered people who seem intent on proving they are better than me. I've encountered corruption and complacency at it's finest. I've worked my tail off only to receive more criticism and questions about my motivations. All of this made me feel so tired, inadequate, and overwhelmed I wanted to cry. Somehow, I got the feeling I'd just scratched the surface. The surface of hardship... and of personal growth.
God reminded me, if I ran away at every little sign of resistance, I would be wasting the calling He placed upon me... I would be giving into the injustice and letting it trump need! God's message to me, in the midst of all this injustice, was not to cry and pray it all goes away. Not to back down to the deficiencies in the situations around me, but instead to press in and fill in the gaps. Like He so lovingly often does, He told me to DRIVE ON GIRL!! Over and over He keeps showing me this verse:
" Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing."
Whatever road you find yourself on, you will encounter roadblocks, detours, re-routes just like I have. But the solution in the end is not to turn back and go home, nor is it to get off the road and go somewhere easier to reach. Refuel your car (get in the Bible!), get a breath of fresh air (pray), grab some friends to join you on your trip, and get back in your car. DRIVE ON GIRL, and don't get off that road until you reach your destination! Those roadblocks are not your destination, they are your preparation for the real destination.
I have this feeling that my story is only just beginning. I am going to have much to share, and new issues to conquer. This is NOT my end of the road. So get ready... if you're anything like me, your destination may just be the beginning of another new journey ;).